Happy Holidays!

Hello Gumdrops, I hope everyone is having a Happy Holidays! Growing up I use to LOVE this time of the year, I still do though it is not the same. There is much more giving then receiving these days. Anyhow, my family usually gets together and celebrates Christmas together. This year not only did we celebrate Christmas but the 1^st birthday of my little cousin Vivian (yes I know my friend name is Vivian as well lol). So it was double the pleasure. Okay so like I’ve written before, I ALWAYS have a cake for my birthday. When I was younger my mother would throw theme parties for both my sister and me. You know…Elmo, Big Bird, etc. The cake would have a cartoon character made of frosting on it, simple and basic. This is before you could have an actual picture created on the cake. NOW we are in a whole other ball field. Cakes have become much more elaborate to say the least.

So the body of the Barbie is actually eatable, only the head and chest area is plastic. Making these cakes is truly an art! I was totally impressed. Have you ever watched Amazing Wedding Cakes on WEtv or Cake Boss on TLC? The pastry chefs are incredible! It’s like eating a piece of art! *Drools.*

My older cousin made the cupcakes…red velvet, yum! It was a delicious end to yet another memorable Christmas. BTW, speaking of cupcakes Crumbs Bake Shop sells some pretty tasty cupcakes. I will definitely be paying one of their shops a visit again in the near future.  =D XOXOXO

If I Can't Do It, It Simply Can't be Done! =D

All right 2011 is my DIY (Do It Yourself) year! If I can do it myself then it will be done. No more spending unnecessarily. I use to be so good at saving but lately I’ve been spending money that I do NOT have. I look back on my less than wise purchases and it really ticks me off. Because I could have that money in the bank NOW, I did not NEED to purchase that item. Ugh, but I let it go. You only live once right? But no more of that! The madness must be stopped! Oh how I have so much planned for 2011. I just feel as if something epic is going to happen I just don’t know what it is yet. However, I am excited to find out. I am looking forward to a major change. Hopefully it’s a good change and nothing tragic. I also have a lot planned for this blog. You just wait and see! I have a lot of places to check out before my schedule becomes hectic again when school begins. So I will take this time to fit in as much events as possible. And of course I will document my journey every step of the way.  

Anyhoo, this is a picture I found of my nephew clutching his hands together. He was less than a month when I took this photo on my phone. Everytime I look at it I smile. He’s going to be four months soon and my love for him grows more and more with each passing day. It’s amazing how love grows. At times I wonder if I can have children because I wouldn’t know what to do with myself if anything were to happen to them. I honestly couldn’t handle it. I really don’t understand how ANYONE could harm a child. They evoke nothing but innocence. Nevertheless, he’s my free model. I’ve taken some great photos of him and can’t wait to take him out when he’s a little older to take some great shots outdoors. I would post a few I have taken but my sister would kill me! She doesn’t want her son posted all over the Internet, which is totally understandable. But he’s just too cute, I might just sneak one in here one of these days *mischievous grin.*

My Special Day(s)

Hello my darlings! I’m so excited to be posting new entries. I know I haven’t been holding up to my promise BUT I do have a very good reason. I’ve been super busy! But now that I’m on break from school I will have more time to update the blog. YAY! *jumps up and down.* So my birthday passed a couple of weeks ago and I did in fact lug around my camera to capture the beautiful memories. Vivian’s sister Lauren, birthday is a day before mine so we all decided to celebrate together *hearts.* She wanted to attend a drag queen show at the Lips Cabaret, and I was more than game! All I can say is…I HAD A MOTHER LOVING GOOD TIME! It was amazing and advice anyone in the NYC to check it out!

Silly Anna,  got to love her!

Me and my darling girls, such beauties! I was kind of upset that my crown matched my blazer. *shrugs* 

Sheesh someone could of told me my hair was messed up, argh!

Lauren, the fellow birthday girl and Vivian (two beauties)

I swear up and down she looks like Eva the model. So that's what I call her lol

 Anyhow, that was just the beginning. We attended the show that Friday but my birthday wasn’t until Saturday. What did that mean? More celebration of course! It was a weekend affair. That Saturday we decided to go to a club. For the life of me I can’t remember the name but I had fun nonetheless. And for my actual day of my birthday I spent it with my family, oh yea! Okay, maybe its just me but I LOVE ice cream cake in particular carvel’s ice cream cake with the little chocolate crumbs in the middle. YUMMY! So for the past few years I’ve been demanding it for my birthday! Yes, I still cut a cake for my birthday…its tradition. I can’t remember not ever having a cake being cut on my behalf. When I was younger my mom made it into some big surprise like I don’t know that they stashed my cake in the back on the fridge *side eye* but to make her feel better I would act surprised anyway lol. But that didn’t happen this year, they just cut straight to the chase. That how I know I’m getting old. *Sighs.* Needless to say, I enjoyed spending my birthday with both family and friends. And God bless another year! =D

My lil ole ice cream cake hehe

Oh WAAAIT! Did I forget to mention that Vivian took me out for my birthday? No of course I couldn’t forget…save the best for last. I NEVER had sushi before in my life (sushi virgin lol) so she decided to take me out for sushi at a sushi restaurant in Williamsburg. Woo, I was overly excited. And it was a great experience, now I see the rave about California rolls, DELICIOUS! Thank you again Vi! *Kisses.*

BTW, thank you to everyone who helped make my birthday a memorable one. You all looked amazingly beautiful! XOXOX my loves. 

*Shrugs*

Hello my darling gumdrops, so I’ve been meaning to post some new pictures of my latest adventures but unfortunately my computer is just not cooperating with my plan. It’s not allowing me to upload pictures from my camera. I must remind you that this is the same camera that I’ve had my shoots with but allofasudden it doesn’t want to work? Ugh really? But I will figure it out and post some new pics up real soon.

BTW, a few of you have been asking why I don’t have pictures of myself on MY own blog. Well, there is a perfectly good reason for that. I HATE taking pictures. Umm well its not that I reaally hate it BUT I need someone to take it for me, preferably someone taller than I am. I find that when pictures are taken from an upward angle (on me) that they come out all yucky. But from a downward angle it comes out just right. And since I’m the tallest person in my house (besides my dad who certainly doesn’t have the patience to take pictures of me) I’m pretty much out of luck. But help is on the way. If I could find room to use my tripod and use the self-timer on my camera I will be all set. So soon, crossing fingers I will be able to post more pictures of myself. *Cheese face. * Things will be different for the New Year! I can’t believe today is December 1^st, my birthday is just around the corner *wink, wink.*

In the meantime scratch everything else off my Christmas list for these gifts are my only wish! WOA hold up…did that just rhyme? Haha, just call me K-NICE lol just kidding.

McQueen

Always Stay True To... YOURSELF!

Hello my gumdrops! So I was wandering through a few blogs and stumbled across Iamkarmin.com. Anyhow, as I was reading a few of her entries and I came across this post: 

STAY IN CHARACTER.

I think its natural for you as a person to want to nurture and cater to people you care about. Maybe it comes without thinking or maybe we do it in order to recieve the same kindness or love in return. Problem is, these traits aren’t in everybody, and as we all know, what you put out into the world may not always come back in the form you expected. Have you ever asked yourself “Why am I so nice to people and they still treat me like crap?”…of course you have. We all do it once in our lives. I still do it. With strangers, even friends and family. I asked myself that question today at work because this lady pretty much blew me off after I greeted her. The thing I’ve been trying to wrap my mind around is that I should’nt get angry and let myself waste energy on another persons stank attitude. I know they probably arent having the best day. And all anger really is just fear and a little bit of sadness, so then I feel bad for that person… Anywho, It hurts sometimes to keep that smile on my face. Stay in character. Its hard but its possible. Im not perfect but I’m trying, and all the good you do will be recognized.

This spoke VOLUMES to me. Why? Because it’s so true! I feel like that all the time. It’s bizarre, I’m just happy I’m not the only one who feels this way. I think we can all relate to this to some extend. And she’s so right, TRY your best to stay in character! Nevertheless, her website is pretty cool. Check it out! BTW, her faded haircut makes me want to chop ALL my hair off! She looks simply divine! Take care gumdrops! XOXO

BTW...I thought Rihanna looked amazing at the American Music Awards

Forever in a Wonderland! =D

Sometimes I feel so inspired! I feel inspired to create…create a masterpiece! Its like a gush of ideas rushes into my head. I feel so energized. I feel ready to go out into the world and do something, anything. I just want to run wild and free and not give a damn if anyone is watching. I just want to laugh and be happy, just live and lavish in the moment. Then BOOM! The feeling passes and I feel drained and exhausted. Pretty weird huh? I know. I guess I’m kind of weird like that, most of the time my thoughts make no sense. Yet, they drive me completely up the wall. My thoughts are the loudest. Did you hear me? MY THOUGHTS ARE THE LOUDEST! They drive me insane sometimes, just relentless. But I’m learning to accept that, that’s just me. My thoughts are loud and obnoxious. My mind is in a constant race. I’m actually laughing at myself right now on how ridiculously psycho I must sound. But you know what that’s okay. Whew, that’s how I know I’m growing, before I could only write this in my diary or something. Not share this with others in particular perhaps strangers. But I’m beginning to realize that we are all virtually in the same situation only at different levels and in different places. Life is just so awesome, and I’m happy to be alive! I hope all of you are having a lovely day. You are all beautiful (yes, I believe guys can be beautiful too). This photo inspired me and made me smile. I hope it serves as some form of inspiration for you as well. Smiles.* XOXO

Just a Little Inspiration...

Hello, my beautiful gumdrops, cupcakes, and bumpkins! I’m so extra right?  Lol oh well who cares I’m just in an awfully good mood. I’ve decided to be nothing but positive from now on. From now on I’m just going to start putting things into perspective and try (key word TRY) to see the good in everything. I’m going to try to stop focusing on the cons and focus on the pros. Life truly is beautiful and you can’t enjoy it walking around with a huge lump of coal on your shoulders. And that’s what I’ve been doing lately. For reasons way too personal to disclose. BUT I will say that things are slowly beginning to change not necessarily my situation but my attitude. It finally dawned on me one day that I can’t change my surrounding BUT I can change how I perceive things. I’ve been told that I’m a little too secretive and private so this is my way of sharing my umm feelings (for the lack of a better word) with you. And quite honestly it feels kind of good, I feel like I’ve grown a great deal over the past year. And though I may have some regrets I am grateful for the experiences I have had to lead me to the point by which I stand today. You can’t change the cards you are dealt but how you play the game. And I plan on playing a knock out of a game. I hope you all plan on doing the same. Just stay positive and remember like the good the bad times shall pass too. Hope all of you have an amazing day! XOXO

Show Up to Stand Out!

Dear Santa (Mom),

I promise to be a good girl for a whole year if I could have all these things under the tree for Christmas, please! Would not mind adding these items to my closet:

I sometimes think about how my life would be if I were born into a rich family. Then again who hasn't had this fantasy? Sighs. I don't want to seem ungrateful; because I am grateful for the things I do have and simply adore my family. But still it sucks to have to work, not that I'm lazy or anything. I do NOT expect anything to be handed to me on a silver platter in this lifetime... I'm just so tired of being the underdog! But no worries, I am currently working like a slave to one day be MASTER! Oh yea! I will do whatever it takes to one day become my own boss besides going against my morals and compromising my self-respect of course. And I refuse to step and break someone else's toes to get to the top. Needless to say, Christmas is in fact my favorite time of the year. I may be jumping the gun a bit considering the fact that Thanksgiving is next week and I do LOVE to eat. Please do not let my size fool you lol. Anyhow be on the look out for these bad boys this upcoming spring 2011.  

 Aurélie Bidermann 

Bulgari

Mawi

When it rains let it...

When it rains let it rain diamonds! Oh dress me in everything pretty and sparkly. I swear up and down the simple things in life make me happy. A pleasant conversation can make my day; honestly it doesn’t take a whole lot to get a smile out of me. I was in class today and one of my classmates had this awesome color on her nails. It was royal blue but it had sparkles. Not the regular glittery sparkly nail polishes. But it was like the glitter was sealed into a layer versus being all shiny and sparkly at the top. Does that make sense?

Now do you see what I mean? Anyway, this is the exact nail polish she had on. Its called, Across the Universe by Deborah Lippmann. It’s a bit on the pricey side retailing at $18 a bottle. But when I saw it, it totally made me smile. Imagine a shade of nail polish made my day? Pretty sad life huh? Nonetheless, these are some things that tickled my taste buds today...

Drools* (wipes mouth)

Alexander McQueen

She Fancy Huh?

Presenting the beautiful Olena lol. Yes, it was time for another one of those shoots. And once again the amazingly talented Vivian showed off her artistic skills. These dresses are a few of her masterpieces. If I had even an ounce of such talent, I probably would never step foot in another retail store again! Admirers would ask: “Hey where did you get that?” Me: “Oh this? I made it myself!” HA! Now that’s straight up DOPERY! Nonetheless, Olena was a dream to work with because she absolutely LOVED the camera, she would probably make love to it if she could lol just kidding. But she is so flipping cool. Simply adore her! Now that I think of it ALL my friends are BADASS! Smiles.* 

FAV!

Gorgeous!

Seduction!

Ahh no more paparazzi lol

Vivian and Olena being silly =D

Silly me. Don't ask me what I was doing. That's my fav scarf BTW

Olena and me being silly. Good times. Huge smiles*