Eyes. Wide. Open.

Hello World!! I’ve found my definition of purpose. I now know what purpose my life will serve. I am fully aware of my mission and will do everything within my power to complete it. Ahh it is truly amazing that once upon a time I approached the world with tightly clenched fists creating a T, covering my face like a fighter. I truly did believe that the world was against me, everyone was the enemy and no one could be trusted. In this life it was all about me, me and yes more of me. I believed wholeheartedly that I knew it all. Then life goes and slaps me straight across the face, forever bruising my cheek, leaving a slight scar only noticeable to me. This scar now serves as symbol of recollection so I will never forget. I have put down those tightly clenched fists. My arms now rest by my sides, hands open, palms up, and ready to receive like reaching out to feel the rain. I understand that this new approach is risky.  I was protected by my fighter stance, forming a barrier, a shell around me. Allowing myself to be this open, places me at a very vulnerable state. I am now placed within marginal lines, being this open means that I am now subject to catch the heartache and pains of life. But I am beginning to understand that it’s okay because that also means that my hands are ready to catch all the beautiful things as they fall out the sky. So to me that makes it worth it. I don’t want to merely exist. I want to live and living means feeling…everything. So now it’s not just about me, it’s about the world around me. It’s about what I can do to change it for the better. My hunger and desire ushers me in and out of each day. Steve Jobs was right in this life you must, “Stay hungry. Stay foolish.” Many may not understand your purpose but that’s okay. There will be times when the very same people that you’re trying to save will be the very same people stepping on your cape. But don’t let that discourage you. As eager as I am to set out on this adventure I know I must be patient. I know that I must fully educate myself. Cleanse myself of all the miseducations. Knowledge and education is the sine qua non of my mission. Stay beautiful! XoXXoXXo