It’s all about me! Please, don’t take it personally…

Okay, so lately I’ve been totally self-absorbed. Not really caring about anything that doesn’t benefit me. If its not helping me elevate then it’s not that important. Lately, this unabated drive for success has my eyes scotch tapped open. I see it. I want it. Period. This stentorian voice has been keeping me up. It doesn’t shut up. Success, love and happiness are all I need in this life. It’s all I want. Some get 1 out of 2, others 2 out of 3. Me? I’m going for all 3. Impossible? I’m trying to make the impossible, possible. I will not settle for less. As far as I’m concerned it’s just this mountain of success and me. I have my climbing gear on. I’m ready. May have a few scratches and bruises and be tired as hell when I finally get to the top but it will all be worth it. So what does one do when they reach the top? This is a question that I asked myself before I went to bed last night. Then as I was about to close my eyes to fall asleep, it hit me. DUH, climb another mountain!  

My mom swears I’m a vegetarian. She made me a veggie burger with mixed vegetables. But I must admit it was mighty toothsome. =D

I finally got to hang out with my pocket of cuteness Melanie. She is just too cool. I’m going to have to clone her and a few other people. The world needs more of these people in this life. BTW, I’m totally in love with her hair! Enjoy you beautiful people. Until next time…XoXXoXXo

Picture This

So I had a mini photo shoot last week. It was pretty cool, but I know I could never be a professional model. For one, I definitely do not have the poise of a model and I can be deathly awkward in front of the camera. I prefer to be behind the lens, although I‘m still just a novice photographer. I want to be the one to capture the moment. I’ve come to the realize that pictures today are not about capturing a moment but selling an idea. Most people post pictures of themselves to plant an idea. Paint a picture of who they are or rather who they want others to believe they are. They want to seem cool, fun, exciting or perhaps rugged, daring, whatever. I want stills of a moment. Whether it be a couple making kissy faces in the park, kids playing on the playground, a woman smiling as she reads a novel on the train or a guy bopping to the music blasting from his headphones. I zeal for those random moments, they are the best!  Anyway, here are a few shots of that day:

BTW, my homie Sean was the photographer of the day once again. He was real patient and down for whatever, which made it a lot easier. Hope you guys enjoyed, have a beautiful day! XoXXoXXo

Just Saying...

I am my best friend and worst enemy. I knock myself down and build myself up. My mind and me have a love hate relationship. Sometimes my own thoughts piss me off, and I want to pack up and take a vacation from myself. Then there are times when I’m madly in love with me. I think the most while on the train to work. I'm completely engulfed in my thoughts that I sometimes fail to hear the announcements, "This is the last stop on this train. Everyone please leave the train. Thank you for riding with MTA's NYC transit." I sit there and watch as everyone leaves the train. I see them but I'm not truly looking at them. My mind is god knows where else. Then a friendly MTA crew member informs me that its time to go. Then I'm yanked back into reality. There are times when I feel totally euphoric. Then there are times when I want to sit and wallow in self-pity. Sometimes my best just doesn't seem good enough and I vituperate myself. I tell myself that I'm simply not good enough and will never be. I see my competion and feel embarrassingly defeated. Then within the next moment I feel like I can rule the world. That I could fly to outer space fueled by my own ambitions. I remind myself of how I was when I was in elementary school. A time where I felt like anything was possible. Where my imagination would run wild and I didn't second-guess myself. I think back to a little song my 3rd-5th-grade science teacher taught me, "I am special. I can be anything that I want to be. But no one can do it for me but me. If it is to be its up to me." This is now my mantra.  I am my biggest critic.  I am my greatest competition. I am the oppressor of optimistic and pessimistic thoughts. I am the challenger. I am the motivator. I am in charge of my destiny. I test my limits. I know my capabilities. I am exactly where I'm supposed to be at this stage in my life. I am grateful. I am thankful. I love those who push me outside of my comfort zone. I am humbled by the true greatness that surrounds me. I am blessed.

BTW, I had dinner with my Viva la Vivie tonight and we decided to have a walk while we chatted a bit and we stumbled across this…

Just a bunch of random books sprawled out on the sidewalk. So we decided to take some up and donate them to Goodwill. I would hate to see books thrown into the trash. Sorry for the poor quality of these pictures, I took them with my phone
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Until next time my loves…XoXXoXXo

On A Incline!

Oh my have I missed my pumpkin pies! I feel like I’ve totally abandoned this blog, my apologies. For my faithful followers I once wrote about leaving this world and entering my own. I left my world momentarily to come back to this place. It’s time for me to go back, it’s way too ugly on this side. Needless to say, a million and one things have been going on and with time I will catch everyone up. For now let’s focus on a few. I’ve been trying my best to fool around with the video feature on my camera to help one of my friends out with shooting a short documentary. Which I’m super excited to do since I have so many ideas, I only pray they can be executed as I imagine. If it can, then it will be brilliant. I promise. In the midst of all of this I’m still trying to get better with my photography. My multi-talented gumdrop Sean dabbles in photography, so on an outing he actually took some pictures of me. Anyway, it wasn’t a planned photo shoot, pretty much a “why not” kind of thing. Here are a few shots of the day:

Mr. Handsome, Sean Ice

Sean is super talented he sings raps, writes his own music, draws, and does photography the works. This probably sounds like a paid advertisement but believe me it’s not. Though I wish it was lol, just kidding. But honestly this guy rocks! He’s just too cool and he’s cute too! All that and he still manages to stay humble. That's what I love the most; I pray he doesn't lose that. And guess what ladies…he’s SINGLE! Ahh there is one song in particular of his that I’m just in love with, it’s so inspiring. I listen to it all the time. I don’t know it just speaks to me; the name of this song is called "A Million." But my iPod is filled with his music. Every song is different no two are the same. His talent honestly blows me away. I can’t wait for the day when I hear his music on the radio. I’m going to be like “OH shoot I know him!!” and jump up and down. Or maybe knew him. You know how some people get when they get fame. Hopefully he doesn’t become one of those people. But I truly believe in this guy and you all should get use to his name, you’re sure to hear much more about him. At last music today just doesn’t give me that fix that I’m looking for less than a handful of artist mentally stimulates me. Artists like Kanye West, Lupe Fiasco, and Lauryn Hill. They are the only artists that come to mind. Though I must say I do enjoy listening to Drake. But I’m not ready to put him in the same league as the rest. I need more from him. Don’t get me wrong I love music that just makes me want to dance and jump up and down and have a good time. They’re several artists that do that for me. But that’s the problem, when they are all the same no one stands out. In life you must strive to stand out not blend in though this is just my opinion. I love when I can finish listening to a song and simply am in astonishment like, “whoa, I never looked at it like that before or wow that’s exactly how I’m feeling right now.” Does that make sense? It does to me. Oh I have so much to say so many topics to cover! Until next time…XoXXoXXo

BTW, Sean is the person that I'm going to shoot the video for. World meet Sean Ice or as I know him Sean Ewen. Check him out at http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=547819129