Just Saying...

I am my best friend and worst enemy. I knock myself down and build myself up. My mind and me have a love hate relationship. Sometimes my own thoughts piss me off, and I want to pack up and take a vacation from myself. Then there are times when I’m madly in love with me. I think the most while on the train to work. I'm completely engulfed in my thoughts that I sometimes fail to hear the announcements, "This is the last stop on this train. Everyone please leave the train. Thank you for riding with MTA's NYC transit." I sit there and watch as everyone leaves the train. I see them but I'm not truly looking at them. My mind is god knows where else. Then a friendly MTA crew member informs me that its time to go. Then I'm yanked back into reality. There are times when I feel totally euphoric. Then there are times when I want to sit and wallow in self-pity. Sometimes my best just doesn't seem good enough and I vituperate myself. I tell myself that I'm simply not good enough and will never be. I see my competion and feel embarrassingly defeated. Then within the next moment I feel like I can rule the world. That I could fly to outer space fueled by my own ambitions. I remind myself of how I was when I was in elementary school. A time where I felt like anything was possible. Where my imagination would run wild and I didn't second-guess myself. I think back to a little song my 3rd-5th-grade science teacher taught me, "I am special. I can be anything that I want to be. But no one can do it for me but me. If it is to be its up to me." This is now my mantra.  I am my biggest critic.  I am my greatest competition. I am the oppressor of optimistic and pessimistic thoughts. I am the challenger. I am the motivator. I am in charge of my destiny. I test my limits. I know my capabilities. I am exactly where I'm supposed to be at this stage in my life. I am grateful. I am thankful. I love those who push me outside of my comfort zone. I am humbled by the true greatness that surrounds me. I am blessed.

BTW, I had dinner with my Viva la Vivie tonight and we decided to have a walk while we chatted a bit and we stumbled across this…

Just a bunch of random books sprawled out on the sidewalk. So we decided to take some up and donate them to Goodwill. I would hate to see books thrown into the trash. Sorry for the poor quality of these pictures, I took them with my phone
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Until next time my loves…XoXXoXXo